I am writing this diary to apologise to my colleague (read my friend) Shanti Kumar Khumukcham.
We have been working in the same organization for more than 1 year, and Mr Shanti Khumukcham has been such a nice friend to me. He was always there for me, trying to cover my deficits and weak points.
And I am such a scoundrel, other day I got him into such a big trouble in the office, simply due to my extremely irresponsible and callous behaviour. It was such a development that got Shanti's loyalty and credibility under scanner, while I myself know that he is one of the most loyal persons at our office. And all this happened only because of me.
I am so ashamed and repentant. I have just proved myself to be somebody completely unworthy of friendship. I have proved myself to be a scoundrel, who has caused such a harm to a friend who was so supportive.
Shanti has stopped talking to me, and I know he will never forgive me. I have been repeatedly apologising to him, but he is unmoved. And I know I would have done the same thing if I were there in his position.
I am sorry for sharing such a personal issue here. But the weight of repentance is constantly getting heavier. I just cannot carry it anymore. I have never had so much hatred for myself. This is the first time that I have disappointed a friend so badly.
An online counselor has suggested me to make the confession to somebody, so that I could feel a bit relaxed. And so I am sharing it here.
I know that I have made a mistake, in fact a serious mistake. But I am happy that I have been able to confess it.
Let the almighty always be with Shanti, and give him genuine friends.